Nurturing Energy

I am stunned by the loss I feel as I give up struggle. Who would have thought?

I have lived my days facing challenges, accepting the necessity of taking on more than felt comfortable, and pushing my Self through moments I simply didn’t know how to get out of… thinking I would reach a place and time when I could quit swimming upstream.

And because I asked so passionately, clearly, consistently for just such a thing, I have attracted opportunities to understand I will not ever struggle my way to a time of ease. Ease comes when I release the struggle.

It did not come easy, the release. Logic battled intuition. Old beliefs shouted as insights whispered. Fear and doubt pushed me around. But circumstances and conversations showed up urging me to see past what I’ve always assumed. And, in the end, I did release.

Today, I sit at Café Spirit with a soothing cup of tea because I am feeling a bit off kilter without my struggle. It means anything is possible. It means there is nothing between me and my dreams. It means I get to play.

It means laying my head back, putting my arms out to my side, looking up at the sun, and feeling the nurturing, sustaining energy all around. It means trusting the current to take me forward, knowing I am bringing to my days exactly  what I think about most often.

Notes along the way… Jeanne

Giving Energy to my Potential

In the pink light of this day dawning, I am experiencing clarity. Some events, circumstances, activities, and people are distractions while others are there to help me move toward my destination.

 

My journey to know, embrace, and share my potential isn’t better for cutting a wide swath and isolating myself from life around me. It is in trusting my feelings to know when I’m giving away pieces of my Self so I’m reassured I matter or… spending time and giving energy to a moment that feeds my spirit.

 

Yesterday, I stood at the edge of the lake talking about choices as one of my Café Sisters looked into her own future and potential. Today, I come to thank her for sharing. She moved me deeply with her capacity to challenge her own deep fears. She touched me with her courage to even imagine. In being witness to such power and beauty, I woke up with a dream that led me back to my Self.

I’m glad we spent time at Café Spirit. She inspired. And my own journey feels empowered.

Financial Abundance

Sitting at Café Spirit, I am looking past my usual view and enjoying the energy fields quantum physics is confirming and many have known for generations. And I am struck by the soup of energy around me. Every object, person, thought, feeling is swirling, each in their own particular vibration.

Normally I’m inclined to close my eyes and simply feel the beauty, but today I’ve seen something I’ve been missing. As the different vibrations of energy flow around me from near and far, I am being exposed to the particular rhythms of every different emotion. Financial struggle has it’s frequency as does abundance. The first feels familiar. The second is a new friend. And this is what I’ve realized.

When vibrations of financial struggle move by me, I am inclined to assume they are mine. I turn to them, wonder about them, and give them my attention. I take them on as mine when, in fact, they are most likely flowing willy-nilly by me in the soup of energy. And rather than accept them like a coat handed to me after a gathering of people, I can simply say, “Oh, that’s not mine. I used to wear energy just like that, but now I’m wearing that one, over there… the energy of abundance.”

A Moment with Energy

In the work I do with energy, I am struck by our desire to explore the cause and effect of quantum information… then walk out the door and slip back into our old perceptions of the world. It’s like knowing the world is round, but believing it is flat when we are making our choices.

Because of this, I sometimes make my surroundings a playground of energy awareness. For instance, I might choose to actively, consciously connect to the energy around me as long as it takes to get through the line at the grocery store.

In that moment I shift to my new perspective. I acknowledge the quantum world I live in and deepen my relationship with it. The clerk is no longer so much a person, but an energy field with a certain vibration. And each person she helps has a very specific kind of energy exchange with her. I love to ‘feel’ that connection. With no need to define it as good or bad, I get to simply connect to the energy event happening and empower my own awareness.

Beyond the people around me, I check in to ‘feel’ the energy of the store. There’s also a specific vibration coming from the money being exchanged, the air flowing in and out the doors, and the rolling mat carrying my groceries forward. And what about the food I’ve put in my basket? It’s great fun to feel the energy of each package and how it lines up with my own energy.

Stopping my inner chatter for just a few minutes and connecting to the energy around me; encourages me to ‘feel’ what is a good fit for me. Without analyzing, weighing good and bad, or justifying my feelings, I get to experience my surroundings as an exchange of energy vibrations… noticing what attracts and what repels.

In this, I empower myself. From my energy observations, I recognize what makes me feel more joyful, peaceful, or intrigued. In this, I attach to different choices in the future.

Notes along the way… Jeanne

And so my mantra for today: A moment of conscious, energy awareness can make all the difference.

Intention Energy

I like having friends who help me remember that all my experiences are here to help me grow my potential and embrace my life purpose. I tend to forget that when I’m challenged by circumstances I’ve invited into my days.

The thing is, every event is nothing more than a pattern of energy I’ve brought together. And energy has no good or bad or worse or better. It just is. I am the one who assigns the feeling to my experience. I can look at what is happening in my current day and see it as growing my awareness, creating a contrast for me to see more clearly, showing me what is possible, or urging me to embrace my power.

Or… I can wonder what it’s all about, scrunch into the discomfort, or confirm old beliefs.  Usually, I use these moments to help me hide. I am hiding from my potential. I’m hiding from my purpose.

But there is nothing like a good cup of conversation at Café Spirit to help me remember my energy choice is always in this moment. Right now. So I get to take all the swirling events around me, recognize them as no more than energy I invited to help me hide and then…

… I get to reach out and grab a piece of the energy current that holds my intention. It’s a strong current. I know that because it keeps calling me in spite of all the hiding places I’ve found.

I see that current of intention as a stream of sparkling light, a little to the right as I float in the ocean of energy called life. And I don’t want to hide any more so I’m reaching, reaching until I feel the pull of my potential embracing me. It feels like a sigh.

Notes along the way… Jeanne

And so my mantra for today: I’m not going to hide anymore.

Opening Up

I think the ultimate difference in living my life energy-aware is the way it shifts my perspective from things happening to me to my making things happen. Coming to Café Spirit today, this awareness is associated with love.

I’ve had so many beautiful opportunities to experience love. Hearing my friend’s voice when I pick up the phone, sitting across the table sharing French fries with my husband, or rubbing my dog’s ears, I can feel my energy opening up. From my heart, a warm glow vibrates outward, filling my body and then moving beyond. And, as my experience moves beyond my usual sense of body, the beauty of the world around me comes into focus. The song in the background touches deep sweetness. Colors are brighter.

In that moment, I am experiencing my utter connection with the energy around me. I am full and complete.

My old perspective would have me thinking these moments were rare nuggets coming willy-nilly into my days and all I could do was wish for more. With energy insights, I now know these moments can be engaged in reverse order. I can consciously create them. I can choose to recall the sensations of feeling love and call love to me. I get to stand in any moment and open my heart… open it with intention… letting the warm vibrations flow through my body and beyond. In that, I am sending a vibration out into the ocean of energy inviting love and more loving moments.

Notes along the way… Jeanne

And so my mantra for today: Open my heart and let the warm glow flow outward.

The Observer

In rushing days and relationship building, it’s so very easy to believe we are responding to what is happening around us rather than participating in an astounding dance of energy. But, we can tap into the power of shaping our lives when we recognize how we affect our circumstance by recognizing we are observers as well as participants.

Quantum physics is showing us that the observer affects the outcome of an experience. In the realm beyond our every day vision, the particles that are the foundation for the world we experience are only waves until they are observed. Only in being observed, do they create the physical aspect of what we have around us.

And then we each place our meaning on what we see, feel, and experience.

In my every day routines, I’m not aware of this as often as I would like to be, but I do enjoy those insightful times when I recognize I’m creating the essence of my experience.

It happened yesterday when I waited at a cross walk and watched a man walk his dog across the street. I was immediately bothered by the poor dog’s experience and uncomfortable with the strident man who was training it while the dog wanted to sniff and enjoy the day. Then I caught myself, realizing I was creating a scene of my making. Another person sitting beside me might have viewed the circumstance with great satisfaction, feeling the man was certainly dedicated to taking care of his dog. A third passenger in the car could have totally missed the whole event, their attention turned to the garbage truck passing by.

And beyond remembering that I was interpreting the event in front of me, I drove on realizing that I also participated in being there at that moment. I walked into the grocery store wondering why I had chosen that experience of empowerment and disempowerment, of dogs and owners, of a pause in the middle of my errands.

Notes along the way… Jeanne

And so my mantra for today: Remember I am an observer creating my reality.

Releasing Stagnant Energy

I don’t know anyone who doesn’t find them selves revisiting stagnant energy. They, like me, bump into it with a thud when they are pushing against the familiar to grow their lives. It happened to me last night. I went to bed tired and woke up at midnight with my heart pounding. Money fears had crept into my dreams.

At Café Spirit, I can report that it took only three night-time hours to let money energy flow again. And we all know that each night-time hour is equal to 30 tosses and turns, 3 thoughts of chocolate, and 7 glances a the clock. But somewhere in there, I remembered to look at my circumstance through the insights to be found in energy.

I saw myself in the ‘money house’ I had built with all the energy I have around money and I knew that recent efforts to remodel it had brought out old fears. These guys are relentless and, in trying to keep me where I’ve always been, they shuttered the windows, locked the doors, and made my money house safe once again… with my usual thought around money.

But this time it didn’t make me feel safe to go back to my usual thinking. I didn’t feel comforted by putting my money energy into a holding pattern. For several tosses and turns and one thought of escaping to chocolate, I didn’t know what to do. Then I ‘saw’ myself opening up the windows.  I threw open all the doors. And, still, that wasn’t enough. So I dared to walk out the door and away from the money house I’ve built with particular energy vibrations over the years.

I walked into free-flowing money energy. I let it rush around me and noticed I didn’t fall apart. I walked to the gate and opened it, letting money swirl past me. I braved the on-coming stampede and laughed when it tickled. And then I looked back at my money house because I was determined to never return to the home of old energy connections.

It stood stark against the rising sun and I said goodbye because I was ready to explore the infinite possibilities beyond the walls I had built, out there where money feels like music and I’m a stranger to its beauty and power.

I went back to sleep in the early morning hours, knowing I would find my way if I remembered money is only energy.

Notes along the way… Jeanne

And so my mantra for today: Believe in my money possibilities.

Looking Past the Obvious

We can sit down to eat a slice of cake and look at it from two perspectives.

The first view would say, “Here’s a cake. Let’s eat it.” The cake is all I would see. My response would only take in what could be done with the object before me.

The second view would say, “I see the cake, but I am aware it’s made of ingredients. What I see before me is also a mixture of items I can’t see, but I know they are there and this cake would not exist without them.

In the second view, I am looking past the obvious.

We live in a world much like this experience. We see objects, experience time, have thoughts and feelings. Hold beliefs. Share relationships. All of these are like the cake. They exist and there is more beyond the obvious.

Quantum physics is the study of how the universe and world interacts at the level we can’t see. It goes even deeper than the ingredients of the cake to show us what is happening where everything becomes vibrating energy.

While our world can be considered physical objects, beliefs, emotions, and thoughts it can also be understood when all of these are nothing but energy and part of an ocean of energy that is interacting, reacting, and communicating. This is where the wonder of healing, manifesting, choices, and change take on new meaning.

Notes along the way… Jeanne

And so my mantra for today: Look past the obvious.

Energy Tangles

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Yesterday, I was reminded how I can take soaring, activating energy and start tangling it up in spite of my good intentions. It happened when I was manifesting.

Sitting across a hotel bed late into the night with my inspired, dynamic, and determined friend, we realized the next for my Energy Insights retreats was to take photos of the magic that happens when participants come together to share an adventure that takes each person to their own destination. Remembering past retreats, we knew the stunning, startling, focused, and sometimes just plain silly images that always come up. They would tell the story for those who might wonder about attending, but want to know more. And, in that moment, I knew the perfect people to invite to this event that would be a spirit retreat, but one that asked the participants to be photographed in their very private journey.

The energy soared around my endeavor. The first thing the following morning, I spoke to the woman who might host such an event and she not only had a clear calendar, she was enthusiastic for herself as well as generous in supporting me. I hung up the phone and a second call came in. It was a rare contact in our sweet relationship, but there she was, when the night before I had thought she would be one of the perfect participants.

And then the day proceeded and I started going to my head and heart. It was all good logic and full of caring, but the energy started getting entangled. It was heading for a block. I could feel it like a weight on my shoulders as the clarity began fading.

Lucky me to have my husband at hand. He felt the change, heard me starting to back peddle and consider detours. He urged me to go back to my intuition, to honor the insightful flow of energy that began with the birth of the idea. And the energy started soaring again.

A lesson learned.

Notes along the way… Jeanne

And so my mantra for today: Honor my energy flow when I’m manifesting.